this was probably one of my favorite Savoy Brown songs ……..somehow it became a song from the soundtrack of my life long ago…….well, I was a “hellbound train”.
I got over it, like most of us “get over” things that make our lives harder. I dont know how or when but it was long before I had to face this evil. So for that I am happy.
drugs, alcohol, debauchery at its best! what a fuckin ride. I look back and can see the faces of many friends who did not make it out……….I used to wonder if I would. well i did.
Hemingway didnt have any more fun than we did…..he was just a better writer and ended up drinking himself into a suicidal state…sadly, but perhaps fittingly because it was much more dramatic and someday they will make a fine film about the life of ernest hemingway…..and the things that drove a genius crazy with paranoia, alcoholism and mental disease. I am not comparing my life to hemingway’s, lol, nothing could be further from the truth, he had so many interesting adventures and actually could write.
I am actually just feeling grateful that whatever epiphany stopped my karmic trainwreck came along……….because that’s all it could have been was a miracle, right?
Well, that depends on who you talk to i guess. some would tell you that what defines and shapes our lives are 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to these things.
I am more of the ilk that MIRACLE is an awfully big word to be throwing around. I tend to lean more toward the “life is a series of lessons, these lessons will be presented to you over and over until you master them” school of thought. Which squarely puts the onus on us for responsibility of action, thought and our presentation in this life.
there are those who would claim “karmic forces” and I won’t call them wrong, or you, whatever your beliefs may be. But……..wait….doesn’t karma come back to you the way you send it out?? that would insinuate a bit of responsibility for action, i would think.
this is a pointless post, I mean I am not trying to make a point or sway your thoughts in any way, just sharing.
Anytime someone tells me they got a raw deal I am tempted to tell them that they “took” the raw deal themselves. It’s our choice how we react to adversity…..what we decide to take from situations that we put ourselves in……there are very few miracles….and we are just a bit to co-dependent on god to make miracles.
We must control our own reactions to life.
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